Today, I had an argument with the photog, the reporter and the page designers in office – just about everyone there is to argue with. I’ve been having day after day after day of stressful weekdays because I feel like I’m doing all the dirty work in my office. Which means I do more work than most others, and get all the flak for the mistakes, while the credit for all the right stuff goes to others. Not a unique situation in an office, I understand, but it’s been so prolonged now that I’m tired of filling in for inefficient others — one day one person, the second day another — while doing my own work, and making it appear like team work when it isn’t.
Probably, everyone’s doing the best they can, but if their best isn’t sufficient, what do I do, being in a perceived position of responsibility? I keep wondering, how will they improve if they don’t have it in them to improve no more? Probably, and hopefully, this is temporary.
In other circumstances, I’d quit because I hate working under stress, but now the bloody money has become so good, I can’t quit! I want that cash coming into my account every month. And the bonus, and the hiked salary. And I have no other place to take my talent to within this city! So it’s catch-22.
Actually, I don’t know what Kaam Devta thinks of me these days and if he’s unhappy with me or not, but clearly, I’m quite unhappy with him these days.